i don't know how to explain what i'm feeling. maybe it's a sort of quarter life crisis, part II. i guess this period of unemployment has been harder for me than i'm willing to admit. the last time i was unemployed, i knew what i wanted to do. i had specific jobs in a specific industry that i was looking for, so it was easy, cuz i knew what i wanted to do. but i got the job i wanted in the industry i wanted to be in, and i realized it wasn't what i wanted to do, nor the industry i wanted to be in afterall. that was hard enough to admit. and now, i have no clue what i want to do. no clue whatsoever. and the thought of having my own biz is exciting, but it's really scary. i've never done this before, and everything seems so foreign. it should be exciting and fun, right? maybe i'm just not a risk taker. well, that i knew already. it's been hard for me to get motivated to go forward sometimes, cuz i just don't know wtf i'm doing anymore...just hoping i'm doing it "right." well, i guess we'll see. i just hope i get out of this weird bubble soon, cuz i hate it. i hate it i hate it i hate it.