Thursday, October 14, 2004

well, i'm as free as a bird now...

i can't help but have free bird running thru my head as i leave yet another job. it was running thru my head the last time i quit my job too. it's just so...freeing.

it still feels kinda surreal, like i'll be waking up in the morning to go to work tomorrow. but i'm sure it'll hit me soon enough. i wasn't planning to get into things too much during my exit interview, but then i thought, what the hell. i let everything out, how disappointed i am at the lack of leadership in my department. how i felt strung along for so long, over a YEAR, thinking i'd be manager only to have them string me along some more. it's all just a bunch of bull and i'm over it. people would say "well it's our loss" and i would think, "hell yeah, it's your loss, you made the mistake of not helping me advance in my career, so now you've lost your chance and i'm outta here." the GM, director of food and beverage and director of sales tried to get me to stay. they told me they would make me manager on the spot and give me a raise. i turned them down. but the lame ass director of catering, the man who would've been my boss, didn't say a word to me. he didn't even thank me for helping out the department for the past 6 weeks. not a single word. bastard. i'm so glad to be outta that situation. i just feel bad for the poor souls i've left behind. i just hope it gets better. i just hope they find a way to can the loser.

the best part though is the overwhelming support i've received, from the people who know. it's sad to leave all the great friends i've made, but i'm sure we'll remain friends for a long time. i just hope they get outta there before they're pulled under.

hmm...now what do i do? oh yeah, i have a wedding to plan. i'm this close to freaking out. i still can't find shoes. and my mother is stressing me out, but not on purpose. it's better that i have as little contact as possible with anybody for the next 9 days. so this time off will be very good for me. :)